Apr 2, 2009
The great wide open
When I graduated from college, I was afraid of the great wide open ahead of me. The world was my oyster, as some would say, and picking a path was the overwhelming thing to do. Now, a few years later, the opposite is true. At some point, I had to pick a path, and the great wide open isn’t so open anymore. Funny how you always want what you can’t have.
We’ve been missing Buenos Aires. Today Eric was flipping through our blog archives, and looking at all the photos from our months there was bittersweet. I totally love what I’m doing now, but seeing my calendar fill up with photo jobs also means no long three-month expanses to go take up temporary residence in New Zealand, Peru or Taiwan.
Today, I was admitted to New York University’s M.S. in Publishing program. But so much in my life has changed since I sent off my applications in December that I decided awhile ago that graduate school isn’t for me right now. However, the conceptual idea of that was one thing, and having an acceptance letter to a prestigious school in my hand and knowing I’m going to turn it down is quite another.
I’ve picked a good path for now, which I’m happy about. I’m living in Portland, I’m photographing great people, I love my job and running my own business. And certainly we’ll still be able to travel, although not as much as we did last year. Maybe it’s natural to grieve the things that change in our lives, even if we’re thrilled with the new opportunities?
P.S. On a happier note, congratulations to our friends Chris and Amanda, who found out recently they’re going to have a baby! We love you guys!
Life is what happens when we make plans. I am reminded of this every day when I see Audrey — and it’s the best thing that has ever happened to me. I think you are smart in going with your gut on this one
Ok…the comment I put on the previous entry was supposed to go on this one…oops!
Hi Sara, I don’t know you and you don’t know me, but i have been reading your blog for quite a while now because i am an Argentinean girl living in the states and my boyfriend is an american boy from seattle, so we do have some things in common. I used to be married to another guy before meeting my american boyfriend and all I want to tell you is that opposite to you, I chose graduate school away from my husband. Distance and stressful graduate life drew us apart at the point where we became complete strangers. You are making a very hard decision today that will impact you future, but believe me, you will not regret it. Because one thing is having that letter in your hand but a VERY different one is living a whole country away from your husband for years. Way to go, girl.
Thanks so much for the encouraging words, Julie, Christine and Lola! I know I made the right decision.
1. Ten-01 has the best happy hour!
2. Good for you on all of the above!